Food Is Just Too Good.

This is me in every morning:
        "YES! I AM GOING TO EAT SO HEALTHY TODAY! LALALALA..."

Totally have myself all worked up. Feeling good. Ready to dominate the day. And then I get to work. Did I mention I work with food? Yeah, well, that's when my secretly evil inner self yells at me to eat something. Just a little something to hold me over until lunch in a few hours. So I have a roll so it'll fill me up enough. Then a chicken strip, then a fry... or 2... or 10.

And then this is me:
        "OMG, WHAT DID YOU DO?!?!?!"

Blah. This is how every day has been going for a while now.  I have managed to lose 20 pounds now by eating healthier and doing the HCG diet but I'm really starting to give into the delicious food. And it doesn't help that I'm a boredom eater. Every time I pass the fryers, I have to get a little bite of something. And it doesn't help that we ALWAYS have delicious freshly made Otis Spunkmeyer cookies coming out of the oven (even though I managed to resist today *(woot)*)!

Right now I'm just sitting on my bed watching TV and trying to resist the temptation of the chili dog from Wienerschnitzel that is calling my name in the fridge. And I just happened to remember I have a ton of delicious cake batter with brownies and sprinkles mixed in from freaking Cold Stone!

I NEED to lose at least another 40 pounds soon for the wedding next summer! I refuse to have wedding pictures of myself like this to haunt me for the rest of my life. Plus we're going on a cruise to Alaska in September and even though I'm not going to be wearing shorts and tank tops like on other cruises, it would still be nice to be able to go swimming in the pools and hang out in the hot tubs without having to be self conscious about myself in a bikini!

I will NOT let food win! But seriously, food is just too good.